Hang in with me. This post might be all over the place.
I don’t know where I picked it up, but somewhere along the way I picked up the tendency to believe that no matter what I do or accomplish–it’s never good enough.
It wasn’t enough to get A’s in school, I wanted 100s.
It wasn’t enough to be on the cheerleading squad, I wanted to be head cheerleader.
It wasn’t enough to have a great job as a 2nd grade teacher, I wanted to be new teacher of the year.
It isn’t enough to get two Master’s degrees, I want a doctorate.
It isn’t enough that 60 people participate in my link-up, I want 100.
This “never good enough” mindset puts me in a constant state of striving to get one notch better. One step higher on the ladder. But once I get there, it’s still not good enough to satisfy me.
I only look at my blog stats once a week. That day is Tuesday. I looked at them yesterday morning, and they were down. I was frustrated. I was confused about why I even spend so much time working on this blog if only that many people are going to look at it. Then a bloggy friend graciously pointed out a blessing and told me of how I had encouraged her.
Later that morning, I was working on my BSF lesson going through passages listed and identifying the ways the Holy Spirit worked in those passages. All the while I’m praying, Lord, what do you want me to get out of this?
The passages reminded me that the Holy Spirit works through me. Specifically, He works through my words here on the blog. John 3:8 reminded me that the Spirit blows wherever He pleases…like the wind. He chooses to use this blog however He desires.
For me to say that my blog is not good enough is me telling the Holy Spirit that His work isn’t good enough.
Immediate confession and repentance and acknowledgment of the lies I was believing.
First, I believed that I created, built, whatever you want to call it, this blog on my own. In my own strength. So. not. true. It’s only in the Lord’s strength and by His wisdom I have anything to offer here.
Second, I believed that the blog had to achieve some certain level to be “good enough” (which we know by now still wouldn’t be good enough for me if I even got there…). Again–not true. Any work done in the power of the Holy Spirit is more than enough. <–Believe it?, Tweet it!
BSF lessons always conclude with a “based on what you have learned, how can you apply this lesson…” sort of question. I concluded my lesson with this statement (Our study was mostly focused on Genesis 1 with a sidetrack on the Holy Spirit):
Everything God willed to be was. His desire for my ministry and our family will come to pass. Then I added…If I don’t get in the way?!
That’s where I’m stuck. In creation, God said, let it be, and it was. How does my free will influence/affect His will in my life?
So I warned you that I was all over the place today!
It’s time for the WIP (Work in Progress) Wednesday Link-Up!
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This post is linked with thanks to:
Works for Me Wednesday
Women in the Word Wednesday
Living Well Wednesday
Unwrapping His Promises
God Bumps and God-Incidences
Encourage One Another Wednesday
Walk with Him Wednesday
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